Title: Five Seconds From the Breakdown
Category : Angst
Content: Jim & Pam
Summary: As though an invisible switch had turned on inside of her, all the water in her heart flooded out and she found herself sobbing violently on the linoleum floor of the dark break room.
Spoilers: Post Stamford, season 3.
Her breath hitched in her throat violently and tears seeped into her eyes. Before she even knew what was happening she was on the floor, tightly wrapped as if she could make herself disappear if she just squeezed hard enough. As though an invisible switch had turned on inside of her, all the water in her heart flooded out and she found herself sobbing violently on the linoleum floor of the dark break room.
"It's not fair, it's not fair." The words were sliding out her mouth in aggressive whispers, over and over, interrupted only slightly by her whimpers.
A chill ran through the whole of her, causing tremors that wouldn't stop. It was too dark, too late for her to be breaking down here. Not here. Not now. She strengthened her hold on herself and buried her face into her knees. Every tear she cried trickled down her bare legs and she shivered again.
A voice. His voice. How could she not have heard his footsteps? Her heart halted and she stopped breathing, causing her to choke on a sob she was suppressing.
"Oh my god, Pam." By the last word, he was by her side, both arms around her; her shield. With every tear she shed, his heart cracked a little more.
He didn't ask any questions. He didn't try to coax it out of her. He just simply let her cry, like any friend would do. Like any best friend would do. Like any guy who had been waiting years for her to even notice him would do. Like anyone who was just so simply and so positively madly in love with her would do.
And just like that, she cried. She sobbed for everything, and then nothing at all, really.
It took her about one minute for it to hit her, five seconds to push his arms away, four seconds for her to spring off the floor, three seconds until the door swung open, two seconds until her footsteps slowly died away, and one second for Jim to realize that he was letting his love walk away. Just like always.
And as though an invisible switch had turned on inside of him, all the water in his heart flooded out and he found himself sobbing violently on the linoleum floor of the dark break room.
Completely and utterly alone.