Title: Jealousy
Author: colormyeyesred
Ratings: K+
Category : Romance/Hurt/Comfort
Content: Jim & Pam
Summary: He felt stupid for going out with Katy, because when he kissed her he would always think of the receptionist.
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Jim didn't really get jealous.
It was more of an uncomfortable feeling he got when he saw something that he wanted being used by someone else.
Not really jealousy.
He didn't feel jealousy when Pete got his new bike before Jim did. Jim just felt disappointed.
He didn't feel jealousy when his friend got a B- on the math quiz in eighth grade and Jim got a C+. He just felt frustration.
Jim didn't feel jealousy when his dad said Tom played the piano better than Jim did. He just felt annoyed.
But Jim didn't feel jealousy when he saw Pam and Roy together. No. No, he didn't.
He felt stupid.
He felt stupid for falling in love with his best friend when he knew she was engaged.
He felt stupid for being awkward whenever Roy would come around.
He felt stupid for day dreaming of holding Pam's hand, and for her to be holding his.
He felt stupid for going out with Katy, because when he kissed her he would always think of the receptionist.
Jim didn't get jealous when he saw Pam and Roy kiss and hug and flirt.
He felt like an idiot.
He felt like he was dying inside.
He felt like he should know better than to feel like this.
He felt like he should tell Pam how he felt.
Because even though she was engaged to Roy Anderson, she at least seemed a little interested.
And that's what counts, right?